You’d know i cant do this.
You’d know that it honestly is either life or death to me.
You’d know that im not strong enough, nor am i brave enough.
You’d know that no matter how bad you can make me feel, or put me down, i will still never be strong enough to face my fears.
Im sorry, is all i can say. because everytime i think about it, i burst to tears.. and freak out.
I cant help it.
But, im done.. and even if that doesn’t help.. i could never put myself through that again. It felt like i had died inside.