You have no idea how afraid i was of losing you as a friend, but at the same time i showed, that our friendship wasn’t the first thing on my mind. And also at the time, i was being very.. stupid. And as i dug myself a deeper.. and deeper hole, i began to realize the one thing that keeps my mind on the things i love, was slipping away from me. And i let something get in the way of the light that shines on me, and i was in the dark, with no way to go for the longest time. I wanted to go back, so bad.. you have no idea. I wanted to just.. leave.. and come back to my friends. But i was so, i dont even know.. just SO SO SO stupid. And now that i look back, i cannot believe what i put you, and everyone else through. But, at the same time.. you were still right there, still helping me through all the shit, still telling me to keep my eyes on the stars, still being the brightest light in the sky.. guiding all the others. And not once, did you give up on me, or leave. And you have no idea.. how glad i am that you didnt go. Because, how else is a star supposed to see, without the moon shining its light?
Muffin, im so.. glad that i met you. Glad that i told you about the stars, and im glad that i know i can put my life in your hands, and know that somehow, i will come out alive and breathing. I don’t want to lose you, or any of our group. And if we ever.. start drifting apart again.. we CANNOT let it happen, we have to fill the bottle, make more pretty pink stuff.. see more shooting stars.. give me more tissues.. :p we have to lay on the trampoline, and have the deep conversations where we all just start crying, we have to wish together, on the roof.. like i promised.
BUT, most of all.. we all have to promise eachother, that we will not let our friendships drift, and that you and i will chase the stars till the day we die. (:
I love you Delaney, and i hope your light guides me through, for the rest of my life.
“I’m not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I’ve always been a freak. So I’ve been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I’m one of those people.”—